A New Beginning

This is the story of my life after the tragedy

And so it happened, we got the phone call…no, I got the phone call. I looked at my BlackBerry screen and I saw my dad’s face on call display. For a split second my heart jumped…and then, nothing. I knew it was that call, the one saying that my grandmother has passed away. Now it’s a new beginning…I can finally get up tomorrow morning and pierce the rainy cloud that has been pouring on me during the past few days. Slowly I’m regaining my energy…its crazy how I’m affected by these kinds of tragedies. I’m kind of glad I didn’t go see her in the hospital…since now I can live my life with that beautiful picture of her in my head, omitting the scars left by pain and suffering.
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Dance of the Lights

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Iluminate my past, my present, and my future...

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I remember the last time I said goodbye to her…only a few weeks ago. We were at my grandparents’ 50th anniversary. She resembled a shiny jewel, covered in gold and diamonds of every colour. This image is the most beautiful image you can keep of a person at the time of death…the image of joy…the image of boundless love…Although the family will never be the same I can surely say that the family will now be able to move on…the family will be able to sleep tonight with both it’s eyes closed.

Talk about a day; it’s been a long time since one of my close family members passed away, 5 years to be exact. I had forgotten that feeling of emptiness within my world, that emotion that constraints you of doing what you desire the most. Today I was a confused little boy, incapable of deciding whether I wished to go left, right, forward, backward…or simply stay still…and do nothing. Nothing is what I did; I laid in bed for what seemed to be hours, and I starred at the sky for what seemed like days…I lost myself for what seemed like years.
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Open Spaces

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Room to make mistakes...

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Although today wasn’t the best day my life…it was an inspiring day. I found somewhat of a motivation in the air that pushed me to take my camera and head outside…to change my ideas. I didn’t have anything better to do…so I went, and it turned out actually okay.

This is all; I don’t think I can write more than this. I’ll be seeing you again very soon…hopefully.

The Daily Beat : A Day Without Rain - Enya

Postpone Production

The story of my life during the past week

I know, I haven’t written in a very long time…but I really have reasons, not excuses. My life is presently on “hold” status, like a postpone production in Hollywood. Summer isn’t really fantastic up to now, as a matter of fact when the series of unfortunate events started it was on Thursday…the first day of rain. Until now we haven’t had a day with sunshine, not one. Could this be a sign?
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Stand Out

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It's all about being original

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My last post dates back to Thursday, so I guess I’ll need to pick up where I left it, being past Firday. I got up relatively early that morning since Em had organized a day for me as part of my “post birthday celebration thing”. I wasn’t aware of much; she’d basically drag me here and there, one location to the next. It was really enjoyable; it kind of took me away for a bit and made me forget everything that was happening. First we went to the movies to see the premiere of “My Sister’s Keeper”. It was such a good film, really emotional and I recommend it for everyone out there. After that we caught a bus (I was unaware of where we were going) and landed at the mall in Ottawa. I was really wondering where she could possibly take me…and to my surprise it was on the mall’s 4th floor, being the roof! I had personally never adventured there and I felt so dumb of never having done so. It’s so beautiful, like a mixture of park ambience in this urban landscape. I added it to my photography location list. Then we headed to a very fancy restaurant in the market; at first it was SO awkward since everybody was in suits and ties…while we were…well…I guess we were somewhat fancy. Anyways, it was very good and the service was absolutely fantastic. Best of all, I was sitting next to the ex-mayor of Ottawa...kind of intimidating…

Finally Saturday (I’m not done with my post yet), it was my birthday! I didn’t want anything really special for my birthday; I basically wanted to spend time with my family. Some people might say that it’s your 16th birthday and it only happens once in your life but I can surely say that I’ll remember my 16th birthday for the rest of my life. Around the time of supper…maybe a bit after, the phone rings and it’s for me. When I picked up it was my aunt from Seattle. I was glad to talk to her since I don’t usually get the chance. But somehow she seemed quite unwell on the phone, as if she was really confused. I didn’t say anything so I waited until something popped up. It was predictable. She informed me that my trip to Seattle will be reschedule since my grandmother, being her mother, isn’t going well right now and it would be a waste to go down to Seattle and needing to come back a few days after. Nobody is to blame here. Sure I’m disappointed and all, I really wanted to leave on the 1st of July, but a little trip compared to the health of a family member is quite minimalist. I kept on saying to myself “let’s not be selfish now” but somehow it was stronger than me to feel as if someone was responsible. To bad, the blame wasn’t attributed to anyone.

I haven’t written in so long that I completely forgot what happened on Sunday. One thing is that Em came over…but other than that I entirely forgot. I guess it wasn’t a very important day after all, seeing as Sunday’s aren’t the best days.
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Crashing Down

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Come crashing down into my world anyday

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Now I can say “Finally Monday” since it puts an end to this post. Monday was an action packed day; it was the climax of the whole situation with my grandmother. My dad left that morning to go to work and my mom stayed with me since I needed to go pass my driver’s license in the morning. I was really stressed out, so stressed out that I felt sick while trying to answer the questionnaire. But I guess I underestimated myself, I always do, since I passed with only 2 mistakes out of 40 questions. I’m now eligible to drive! I was really happy, everybody was…but not for that long. When I got home, with Em, the phone rang and my dad told my mom that he was leaving work since my grandma was really not going well. Only a few hours later, if not minutes, the phone rings again and this time my dad states that my grandma only has a few hours to live. It was really a slap in the face…in a few hours the family would never be the same…the world would never be the same. Its freaky how, as I get older, these kinds of situations seem to hit me harder and harder.

Until now nothing happened, my grandmother is running the last mile. Sooner than later the family will need to take the decision of letting her go and watch her slowly fade away since right now she’s already dead…she’s only physically alive through machines. I learned much in my 16 years of existence with her, but all good things must come to an end…

The Daily Beat : Takin’ Back My Love – Enrique Iglesias

Humidity-Stupidity

The sun is but scorching hot

Summer is finally here! Clear blue skies, heavy loads of mosquitoes and a hell of a lot of humidity. Its summer after all so what do you expect? I’m so happy that the temperature is favourable these last days, as well as very hot, since it’s been warming up the swimming pool. And today it was actually at a very good temperature, enough to get me in it. I rarely go swimming, it’s not my favourite activity but I can say that today I truly enjoyed it.
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Sans Toi

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Il me semble que je suis rien

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They finally found my grandma in the hospital. Turns out she now has a room and she’s on her way to recovery…or so I hope. She seems to be getting worse and worse with every day that goes by. I’m really starting to wonder if the worst is going to happen just before I leave for Seattle, which would be a real downer. I just hope she feels better soon; since there’s always a light at the end of every tunnel…hopefully she won’t find that white light that dead people see…

I received a text earlier today from Em saying that there’s a rumour that Michael Jackson is dead. Curious like I am I went to check on Internet and turns out that almost every news website has an article on “Michael Jackson’s death”. I’m seriously wondering if it’s a supposition or a fact since the whole story begun with one site stating MJ’s death, which seems quite odd. But if you think of it on a more philosophical note it only takes one person to spread the word. I’m kind of really sad if he died because I was looking forward to his tour and I find his music epic and ever lasting. Whatever people say about him he will always stay a public figure throughout the entire word. Let’s hope for the best for Michael.
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Blind, I Am

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And these white lights, they draw over me...

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Anyways, today is a relatively short post; I didn’t feel like writing much. I need to go get some sleep now…have fun!

The Daily Beat : I’ve Got A Feeling – The Black Eyed Peas

The Weatherman Said

“It’s sunny!”

The meteorological tendency lately has been sunny clear skies and very humid temperatures. I don’t complain; it’s after all the best temperature to take pictures of the summer environment. As a matter of fact I took pictures this morning of flowers in my backyard with my father’s camera, which is highly better than mine. I’m glad that his job gave him a camera for the office, it’s these new one by Canon called the ELPH’s…you know the ones promoted by Avril Lavigne on the TV. Now I can use his time to time to get superior quality pictures. For example I played with the settings and the background when shooting in macro turns all blurry, an effect which adds so much to the final product of a picture.

I’ve been trying to talk about my grandma for the past days on my blog but I keep on forgetting. I mentioned earlier this week that she was rushed to the hospital since she wasn’t feeling quite good. Well, turns out that the events following that are quite funny. I’m not this senseless being, quite on the contrary, but the fact that they potentially “lost” my grandma in a hospital makes me laugh…at least smile. How is it possible to lose a patient in a hospital, I mean we haven’t even heard from her in a few days and god knows where she is right now. The funniest part is that my grandpa doesn’t really seem to care; all he’s been talking about is that he can finally sit down on his balcony and read his newspaper (elderly love). We should get news from her sooner the later; hospitals should strongly consider having “lost and found rooms” for patients.
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Éphémère

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De passage dans ma vie mais à tout jamais dans mon coeur

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You know how I was supposed to go get my shots yesterday…shots as in vaccines. Well turns out that we went to the building and the doors were closed, how convenient. Obviously there was some misunderstanding somewhere so my dad and I went to the nearest pharmacy to get some help. We asked this young woman if the health clinic was indeed in the building we were told to head to and she replies by saying that the health clinic is situated on the other side of the city. Even more convenient, now we need to head on the complete opposite of town. By the way the day was scorching hot and the atmosphere was really humid. We get to the other building, quite modern and good looking, from an architectural point of view. On our map we were told to head to the 2nd floor, but when we got there…nothing. The whole place was empty; there weren’t even chairs to sit down. Right there my dad got really pissed; I don’t blame him since he’s the one driving around town, not having a clue what’s going to happen next. So we decide to go down to the first floor where there’s a reception desk. Awkwardly the whole room is filled with expecting mothers and their husband. We must have had looked so out of context, but who gives. We go talk to the nearest secretary and we ask her where the health clinic is. The following seemed like an awful joke, so predictable. She looks at us innocently and tells us that the health clinic is situated on the other side of the city…which means the building we were first at but was locked. But there’s one problem the clinic closes at 4:30 and my appointment was at 5:45, impossible. The expression on my dad’s face was priceless; I could almost read the huge “come on” painted across his lips. So we jumped into the convertible (yes, we were in the convertible, which means that it was twice as hot). Enough running around town.
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Whispers

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If this could be anywhere would I somewhat be somehwere?

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Of course today is a new day, Wednesday, and my mom took care to reschedule my appointment. Turns out that the doctor was waiting for us all along, the only thing is that she left at 5:30, so we just missed her. But I got there on time today, and I wasn’t nervous, at all. She starts explaining to me every virus and their effects as well as the secondary effects of the vaccine…enough to get me a tad stressed. So she starts (I had two to take) and it didn’t hurt…okay maybe a bit since the needle was in my muscle. Everything goes fine; she reminds me that I need to stay for half an hour after the vaccination since it is during that time period that the after-effects take place. And I was proud that nothing happened…well I “was” until I started to see all blurry. It’s pretty much the same symptoms as when you’re going unconscious, the same disturbing feeling. Next thing you know I can’t see nor hear a thing and the doctor is telling me to lye down on the floor and put my feet on a chair. Try to do that when your visibility is impaired, it really sucks. I’m there, on the floor, laughing since I don’t want to seem freaked out of anything (I wasn’t) and people are passing by the door, staring as I’m this retarded person. But in the end I guess its better going through all of this than having those nasty viruses.

Right now I have this really big headache and it doesn’t seem to want to go away. I guess it’s one of the lasting secondary effects which the doctor talked about; I should probably get a bit of rest to be up and running tomorrow morning.

The Daily Beat : Radar – Britney Spears

That Feeling

Brace yourselves

What to say? I’m feeling so messed up right now, I just can’t think straight and everything around me seems so unfavourable on my behalf. I don’t even know if words can describe the feeling since it’s so much more. Here goes nothing.

I know I’m not the only one who felt, feels, and will feel this way. It’s as if everything I do bounces back at me negatively. It’s really starting to get to my head. I feel as if the truest compliments are but the shells of insults, that remarks aren’t constructive but more destructive, hence I can’t seem to find the light in this very dark tunnel. I’m trying to find a certain example to express myself and I think this one is somewhat appropriate. Lately I’ve been working on the advancement of my photography portfolio, and people have seen glimpses of my work. I had compliments; positive indeed, but in my head I want more…I feel as if I deserve more. I guess it’s just this crazy idea that I’m making myself and that soon enough this feeling will make it’s parting, but in the mean time it’s seriously killing me. Other than that I feel as if every word I say comes back and stabs me in the back. I could go on and on with this…but I don’t want to sound depressed and all. I’m leaving Canada soon…and I guess it’s really going to be beneficial. Enough said.
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Happy Ending

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This is my story, it is never-ending

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Like I mentioned I’ve been working on my photography portfolio, I always am but this time more intensively. It actually started yesterday when I decided to reorganize all of my pictures by creating casual and formal folders for every model as well as different categories for my landscape pictures. Now that I’m organized I’m posting the pictures up on facebook. I know, not the best way to “get out there” but I guess it’s a beginning; people are actually noticing the uniqueness in my pictures.

For once I took something positive out of the whole situation. People are amazed how “professional looking” my pictures are and I must say, they’re not half that bad. Even better, you must consider the fact that the pictures are taken on a very simple digital camera that isn’t meant for professional photography, while other pictures (quite a few) are captured on my BlackBerry, and the software which I use to edit the pictures is quite basic since it’s actually a video editing software, it’s quite an achievement. Imagine what I’d be capable of with a professional camera and a better software…I guess I’ll just need to start saving up money, which I already am.
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It Was Long Go

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Remember the face and the world around

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This is actually the first post where I don’t state what day of the week we are, isn’t that amazing?! Too bad I’m messing it up by saying that today is indeed Tuesday, the day which screams baseball as well as vaccines. Yep, tonight I’m going for shots at the clinic in preparation for my trip to Seattle.

Either way I should get back to studying, I’ve trying to for the past days but I always ended up doing other stuff. I at least need to comprehend the basics or else I’m screwed for the driver’s license test…which I’m sure I’m not…is that even a sentence? Anyways, got to get back to studying since I stopped to write this post, see ya.

The Daily Beat : Watermark - Enya

Gag(a)-Worthy Pants

What Perez said

I’ve been rereading my posts lately and I noticed that the time of publication of each post is way off, like almost 12 hours off. It doesn’t make any sense when I post something saying “I don’t usually go to bed this late, I’d better get so sleep” and the timer indicates 3 pm. My point is that it’s a mistake with the system since I don’t personally go to bed at 3 in the afternoon. Another thing that I noticed was that when I post past midnight, which doesn’t really happen a lot since I pass out at that time (pass out as in asleep…not unconscious), the date indicates one day ahead. I don’t know if you understand but if I post at midnight on June 18th, well technically it’s June 19th, so it says. It’s just kind of confusing when you read the events of the 18th and it’s posted as the 19th. In that case you just need to refer to the dates at the end of the post which are always correctly inserted by none other than I.
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Gabriel

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À ceux que l'on perd mais jamais retrouvés...

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Today was the Much Music Video Awards…but before that it was my job to do the intense cleaning of the cars. Well actually I wasn’t the only one, all of the family helped but I’m the one who cleaned the whole convertible alone…it was really frustrating. The car manufacturers clearly don’t realize how difficult it is to go get dirt under a seat that is bolted to the cars chassis, which is obviously unmoveable. I guess it was fun anyways, I accomplished something and the car somewhat looked like new. It’s crazy how much stuff you can find under car seats, like a lot of spare change.

As I was saying, the Much Music Video Awards. They were actually not bad, apart from the fact that everybody didn’t give a damn about the videos (the show was pretty much about the performances) it was good. I was looking forward to seeing Lady Gaga perform on stage, much to Em’s dislike (hahaha) but in the end it was quite catastrophic. I’m not saying that Lady Gaga is a bad performer, at all (Love Games was sung remarkably well while Pokerface…you know, it’s Pokerface) but the outfit that she was wearing screamed SKANK! Seriously, a little less tissue and it was public exposure; there wasn’t much hiding. You could actually see everything; to an extent where Em turned away from the screen in disgust (I must say it wasn’t “sexy” at all like the hosts kept on repeating…as a matter of fact I don’t quite see how we could call anything “sexy”). Other than that the Black Eye Peas (if that’s how you write it) delivered a mediocre performance as well as Billy Talent who was just way off.
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Within the Center

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You can't escape this, you can only omit it

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I’ve been working very recently on new/old pictures, new as in no one has ever seen them before but old as in they date back to my photoshoot with my cousins in April. I’ll post them up in the near future, the effects a simply outstanding.

I better get studying for my driver’s license…it’s coming so soon and I just can’t help but freak out…

The Daily Beat : Paparazzi – Lady Gaga

School's Out For Summer

And I haven’t written a post in forever

Here I am! Sorry for the wait, I had a lot of things to do…really! It’s the beginning of the summer vacations but I’m still very busy, although it’s not with school stuff. In the past 3 days I’ve been all around town, there was seriously no stopping. How about I go back to the last exam day so I can really show you how my life has been CRAZY (okay maybe not that much but you get the point).

That faithful Thursday; my very last exam day as well as my very last day in my 10th grader life. I had my French exam (best for last…no joke). It was relatively easy, but super long. I was halfway done with part 1 (we had 2 parts) when my teacher screamed out that we only had 40 minutes left. I seriously thought I was screwed. But in the end I guess I underestimated myself since I was the first to finish. That doesn’t happen very often, but French is my best subject. Either way, when I left the class for the last time my teacher gave me this HUGE smile. I was really surprised, usually she’s bitchy but this time she actually looked calm and relieved. I guess summer vacations apply for everybody, not only student. I then proceeded to take the last of my stuff from my locker; I closed my lock for the last time before two months. Since I was the first one to finish I was kind of left alone on the school’s patio, waiting for fellow classmates to arrive (I did talk with other people, duh, but I was waiting for the people with whom I’m closer). Finally a few of my friends came along, one in particular who is leaving our school next year. She was explaining how she took out all of her locker decoration one by one, and then locked her locker for the very last time. Saying it like this sounds so boring but when she was talking it was really nostalgic; made me feel kind of weird.
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Death Stare

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Beyond imagination exists a deceiving reality called society...

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There I was, free from school, teachers, homework, projects, exams, friends? Would this mean I would be isolated for the rest of the summer? Only time will tell, but one thing is for sure, there’s no end of the year without a little bit of hanging out "after-hours". A couple of friends and I went downtown to celebrate…wait…what did we celebrate? I mean, we did wish happy birthday (really late) to one of our classmate who is heading back to British-Columbia next year. But then it’s the beginning of summer…ah well, I guess it was just a big mix of different celebrations. We ate at this awesome restaurant. I was really hesitant at first when I was looking at the menu since there were two completely different dishes which really interested me, one very plain dish and the other one a tad classy. In the end I told myself that I shouldn’t stay in my comfort zone and simply go with plain old alfredo pasta, so I chose to order this magnificent dish which was named Funghi e Prosciutto, which presented penne tossed with wild mushrooms, fresh rosemary and spanish onions in a white wine cream sauce topped with prosciutto. As if that didn’t sound like enough, I was full after only a few bites. It was seriously one of the best nights of my life; I had never smiled and laughed to the point where my mouth would literally hurt. After our terrific dinner we decided to head to Candy Mountain. I had never really entered in such a store before, I had heard about it but never personally experienced it. It’s quite an experience; you find every single piece of candy, no kidding. They were even some REAL scorpions wrapped in candy as well as deep fried worms in a box. I really wonder if they even sell those things.

Usually I’m looking forward to Friday’s, at least when it comes to school. But this Friday was quite cloudy and I was kind of forced to stay inside to do some house cleaning (more like INTENSE room cleaning). It’s profitable, now my room looks spick and span, but I think it’s a waste of time. Em came over in the afternoon; we had until close to midnight together since we needed to go get my brother at school at that time (he was coming back from Toronto). We watched Mr and Mrs Smith. I have so much DVDs at home but I haven’t watch the ¾ of them, sadly. It’s actually a good film, outdated but good. When it came close to eleven I peeked outside and I was the country summer sky filled with stars. Em lives in the city so she never actually saw millions of stars all at once. It was breathtaking. All those theories about the universe and all…it’s quite a mind game…makes you realize at what point the world is small.
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Untouched

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All but one are incapable of truly understanding

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Little parenthesis, I was watching TV while cleaning my room (not very efficient) and it came to my attention that PEPSI has indeed changed its logo. It’s like the end of the world! It’s like talking the golden arch away from McDonald’s (EWWW), it’s a world-wide classic. Good job for the designers at PEPSI, they managed to modernise the logo by adding these angles but is it really going to work? I mean, the old red, white, blue circly thing stays PEPSI’s original logo. My theory is, and this theory could be proven, that Pepsi (I’m tired of writing it in capital letters) is loosing it’s clientele to Dr. Pepper. Haven’t you seen all of their new TV adds with Dr. Dre (I don’t know how to write his name) and they are driving around town with these trucks that are loaded with free drinks. They stop at schools on a regular basis to do some promotion and let me just tell you that it really works. That’s why Pepsi changed its logo, to bring back the clientele.

Last but not least, today is Saturday. There isn’t much going on around here; it’s quite a gloomy day. I learned earlier this evening that my grandmother is going to go to the hospital really soon, I hope it’s not swine flu. Now I’m stuck at home, doing nothing and I think it’s going to rain anytime soon. I’m being called for dinner now, I’m leaving.

I kept my promise; I now upload my pictures in a bigger format.

The Daily Beat : Until Death Do Us Part - Jonas

Sleepy Head

I’m falling asleep, literally

My body is presently telling me “go to bed already” while my mind says “Let’s stay up until 5 in the morning again”. I would if I could; it was such a…what’s the word…pleasant (?) experience. I could see the sun peeking forward at the horizon while the birds were chirping a melody at the dawn of a new day. How poetic is that, although all the magic is taken away when you need to work on a History project that drags on forever. The funny thing is that I wasn’t even tired, I could have had worked for many more hours without falling asleep. Even better, when I went to bed at 5 I couldn’t seem to be able to fall asleep. When I did everything went crazy, I don’t remember my parents leaving home with my brother (he’s gone to Toronto for the rest of the week!!!), nor do I recall my dad placing my dog next to me. It was quite a mystery when I got up at 7:30, some things had changed place!
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Once Upon A Time

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Lived an individual, the end...

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It was kind of weird how I only had had 2 and a half hour of sleep and I was awake so early. How bad could it be? I couldn’t possibly crash later on during the day, right? WRONG! At 2:30 I made my way to the closest bed I could find and I simply passed away (okay wrong term, I meant passed out). I woke up later on at 5:00 when my dog was barking madly at the door. I went to check when I realized that both my mom and dad were home! How hard had I been sleeping?! Usually I’m a light sleeper, but I guess today was a slightly different day.
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Frivolous Minds

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So many thoughts run unspoken it's making me nauseous

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I so have nothing to write in today’s post, I basically talked about falling asleep and waking up over and over again, I’m so sorry. I should head to bed now; I have my French exam tomorrow. It’s the last one for the year; I’m so looking forward to ending my 10th grade days.

Before I leave I would like to shortly talk about something that I found really disturbing that occurred on Tuesday night. As you all know I was at baseball and Em came as well. When we got there I noticed these 3 women that looked kind of odd, nothing more, nothing less. I then proceeded to changing my shoes while Em held on to my stuff (she was sitting on a bench…but you know, these like ascending benches). As I’m making my way to the field I see the 3 women sitting behind Em; sitting behind a stranger isn’t an offence in Canada, obviously. I was suddenly startled when I saw the 3 women starting to touch each other’s breasts, smoking, as well as talking extremely loud. I felt so bad for Em when she looked at me, giving out this innocent face saying “help me!” Further on I go sit beside her and I overheard (I wasn’t eavesdropping, they were talking so loudly that it seemed as if they were addressing me) the women saying “oh my god, we’re lesbians”. I don’t have any problem with lesbians, gays, bisexuals, etc. but when you start acting freaky in public it’s kind of embarrassing to the people around you…and they were really intimidating. I guess some things never change.

The Daily Beat : Africa – Karl Wolf

The Final Stretch

We’re almost there

Here’s to the start of exam week! I just can’t wait (really…I just can’t wait) since the exam week is probably my favourite part of the semester! It sounds completely absurd, I know, but I have a valid explanation. When we have exams at school we don’t really have school…it’s just an hour and a half, possibly two hour period…and then what? Nothing! You go home and you do NOTHING! It’s so different to get home at noon when everybody is out to work; you have the whole house to yourself.

Where was I going with this again? Right, my English exam? This week I only have 3 exams…well 4 but one of them is a project so I just need to drop it off at school (personally I think I’ll send someone else to school since I don’t want to get up at 5:30 in the morning, get prepared and head to school when I’ll only be there for 5 minutes). So, Monday was my English exam…I kind of forgot to study for that. Okay, “forgot” might not be the right term here…how about I “didn’t quite see the relevance of studying for an English exam”, I prefer that. As soon as I sat down in class I knew I was potentially screwed, but on the other hand how hard can it be? I guess it was a mix of both, some things I didn’t get while others I remembered.
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Glowing from Afar

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May my reflection bring upon desesperation

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I’m trying to remember where I went after my English exam on Monday…it’s kind of slipping away. Oh! Now I remember! Em’s aunt came to pick us up at school since we needed to study for our Math exams (mine was on Tuesday and Em’s was on Wednesday). Sometimes I forget stuff…I really need to write things down. And now I’m talking to myself…isn’t this great?! How about I quickly resume my Tuesday Math exam? I didn’t “forget” to study for this one, I was actually looking forward to it since I’ve been getting good grades recently and I’d hate to destroy my progress. I knew the basic (it’s crazy how I studied intensively for my exam and right now I’m starting to forget everything) and the exam went well…apart from a few tricky questions. After that I got to head home for some well deserved rest, or so I thought. Em was coming over at 1 to help me finish my History project. Don’t get me wrong, I did do my project…I just needed help to assemble the visual aspect of it. I thought that we were going to be finished by 7:30, which is the time at which baseball starts, but clearly it wasn’t the case. We barely did half of it, the worst part is that Em needed to leave after my game so I’d be cutting images and texts box as well as assemble random pages all alone. And I thought I had a lot of time, ya right.

When I got home that night (we went to drop off Em at her house) it was almost midnight and I still had half of my project to do. In my head it seemed quite simple, cutting pasting...over and over again…I only had about 30 HUGE pages (I wish I could say only). I got to work without hesitating…time flew by…soon enough I looked at my computer screen and saw that the little clock in the bottom right corner of my screen displayed 5 a.m. THAT’S CRAZY! I usually get up at 5:30. That means if I had an exam on Wednesday I would only have had 30 minutes of sleep, no doubt I would have had failed. Luckily I don’t have any exam on Wednesday, it’s my day off. I’m proud of what I accomplished in 5 hours (my project)…but now I have to “study” for my French exam. Oh, and when I went to bed at 5 I woke up afterwards at 6 to give specification to my mom so she could safely deposit my project at school, then I went back to bed and got up at about 7:30…which means I only had 2:30 hours of sleep or so. I better clean everything up now and take a short nap…I feel energized but my eyes are starting to fail on me.
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Il Était Une Fois

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Quelque part, j'en sais rien...

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P.S.: I don’t know if you guys remember when I shortly discussed the guys’ social behaviour during the dance recital on past Friday…turns out that one of those guys read my blog…and is very pissed off. I don’t blame him, I would to, but his reaction to my comment was yet again irrational and inappropriate (going on Facebook and setting his status as: Let’s briefly talk about the guy who's pissing me off, well he rights retarded stuff about me and my friends, when he hasn't spoken to us more then his little brother has...To some it up...the fagget can just suck my ****...and shove his blog up his @$$...That was brief enough...Right :) Go f*** yourself) I just hope he’ll realize that I didn’t mean to offence anyone, my blog is simply my blank canvas where I sometimes shout out my frustrations. All my excuses to who ever was offended, but in the end I speak the truth and only the truth, it’s a fact…

Oh and by the way, from now on I'll be uploading my pictures in a larger format since they are relatively small.

The Daily Beat : Fall for You – Second-hand Serenade

I Thought It Was Over

I feel like writing a double post right now…here I go!

My brother had friends over all of the weekend. Let’s just say that 12 year old girls are SUPER annoying. I was trying to work on this History project due for next week as part of my final exam, and they kept coming up to the office door (it’s in glass) while making these heart shapes with their hands and screaming I LOVE YOU! So much for working, I could barely concentrate. When I thought that was enough they came into the office and started giving me these “group hugs” (which were potentially life threatening). I got tired after a bit, I thought of barricading the door but it just wouldn’t really work.
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Falling for You

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Let curiousity destroy jealousy, let my love bring fatality, in the end it's just you and me

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Here I go again, working on my very depressing history project. My teacher was so disorganized that he didn’t teach us everything so for part of the project we basically said stuff that might not be true. It’s really irritating when the teacher is supposed to set off an “example” and all he seems to do is follow the group. Now everybody is stressing for the final exams…all but me. I don’t know why but when it comes to these things I simply tell myself that it’s the last god damn test you’re ever going to do for that test…so just get it over with. Usually people have a tendency to believe that the final exams are though and meant to be mind challenging when in reality it is quite on the contrary. Final exams are a resume of everything you learned during a semester, crammed in a test in a simplified format. I mean, how easier can it get; if you’ve been listening in class I’m sure you’re going to do just fine. The only test I’m actually a bit freaking about is my math exam since we learned a lot of stuff. I should be fine after a quick revision…I can’t believe I got 100% on my last test!

My brother’s friends are gone now…so I have time to relax. As a matter of fact I did quite a bit of photo editing, one picture which took about an hour to do. I know it makes it sound fake but it actually turned out very well, it’s the one named “Falling for You”.
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I Dream

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You should to, it's quite therapeutic

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Let’s briefly talk about the guys and their childish behaviour. During the whole dance recital they were checking out girls…okay fine, we all do, but out loud?! I mean, so impolite and rude on their behalf. They kept on repeating “OH! Hot body! I’d go out with her if she didn’t have that face!” That really pushed me off the edge…too bad I’m not a big fan of blowing up into other peoples face. They were loud, disruptive, putting they’re feet on the chairs in front of them as if they were sitting in their living rooms at home. It drove me insane…at least I wont have to cope with them for 2 months. That was brief enough.

I finally found the camera I want on Internet…now I just need to get enough money to buy it since its really expensive. It’s a Canon EOS 40D, these SLR models where you can replace the lenses, pretty sharp. The only thing is that they’re not given, coming in at a price of 1099$ But it’s a good investment, I think. Lately I’m on this Lady Gaga hype, I don’t know why but she simply amazes me. Her music is so catchy and her song “Pokerface” has topped the charts for I don’t know how many consecutive weeks. This is why I’m putting it in the Daily Beat for this post. I should get going now, I have to wake up tomorrow to go to my exams, goodbye.

The Daily Beat : Pokerface – Lady Gaga

The End of the Nightmare

We’re finally awake!

School’s out for summer! Sadly not for ever… (that’s how the song goes) and I still have exams next week! But I’m happy that I don’t have to see SOME of the teachers I had this semester for a few months. Finally I can sit back and relax…that’s what I’m planning on doing although I’m not sure if I will. Let’s shortly talk about summer plans! Well, after I’m done my final exams I’ll need to go back to studying for my driver’s license since I’m getting them the day of my birthday since I’m so impatient…yet it freaks me out. After that I’m leaving my dear country to visit my aunt in Seattle, Washington. I can’t wait for that it’s going to be so awesome, I really feel as if I’m in need of a getaway right now. Other than that I’ll be doing lots of camping since my family is all for the outdoors. Talk about summer plans…not…I have nothing to do, I hope that I’ll find time to do a bit of photography along the way.
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Lucky Enough

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Sometimes luck is a deciding factor...

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Today was the most ironic day ever! I mean, it’s the last day of school and the temperature is simply IRRESISTIBLE. We leave school and BAM! many unfortunate events happen, like literally it was a very unfortunate day, let’s start from here. Tonight I was leaving with Em since I was going to attend her dance recital. Everybody said goodbye, took a few minutes, but then I see one of my friend who looks really pissed off so I go to talk to her. She tells me that she lost her yearbook (yearbooks are essential) and that she went to see a janitor for his help. When she asked him if he saw a yearbook he told her “What’s a yearbook?” How stupid could he be? He works in a school where promotional papers are tapped on the wall yearly to inform everybody of the YEARBOOK sale. Anyways, she explained herself and he told her that they usually throw them out after two days since they think that students simply don’t want them. Now that’s stupid, we pay for those yearbooks and then we randomly don’t want them anymore?! So much for that, when I got to Em’s we had little time to prepare since we had reservations at a restaurant for 14 teenagers. We were a bit late when a guy from the group calls us up and tells us that if we don’t get there soon (they were already at the restaurant) they were going to get kicked out. Of course we started to stress intensely.

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Terre à Terre

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Regarde moi dans les yeux...

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When we got there everything seemed normal…in the end it was an awful prank. We eat and suddenly a girl in the group starts to have an allergic reaction to food…the worst part is that she doesn’t have her eppipen (I don’t know if that’s how you spell it) on her so she was screwed. Her mom came and picked her up to take her to the clinic. We attended the dance recital either way. Soon enough I get a text message from the girl’s boyfriend saying that she’s in the hospital right now and that he can’t see her since Swine Flu is now a level 6 pandemic whatsoever. We were all very shocked…how a simple little numbing feeling ended up into a trip to the hospital. In my next post I’ll talk about the group of guys’ disruptive behaviour during Em’s recital…oh, and Em was amazing!)

When I left Em’s that night we were making our way home, my dad, my mom and I when my mom suddenly squealed very loudly and my dad performed an evasive car manoeuvre. I couldn’t see since I was in the back, I only noticed a double thump under the car wheels. My mom starts to freak out and I wonder what could have had happened when my dad informs me that we just killed a cat…so much for 9 lives…
Anyways, I better get going now, I’ll talk about public decency in my next post, see ya! Don’t mind about the Daily Beat…I’m kind of in a very hyper state right now and that’s what popped up in my head.

The Daily Beat : Streamline - Newton

Prise Deux

ET ACTION!

As if! The Last day of school is tomorrow and I can barely believe it. It feels as if it’s just yesterday that I was walking through the doors of high school for the very first time though in reality it was two years ago. Time went by so quickly that I still remember what I was wearing on that faithful day. It’s still fresh in my mind, how young and innocent I was…back in the days. High school scared everyone; the teachers in elementary school never really prepared us. They kept on repeating how it was going to be hard and demanding; they made it sound so complicated when they tried explaining the subject choice grid whatsoever. We all freaked out…but look at us today, we’re doing quite fine.

One thing I remember is my 8th grade teacher constantly saying that the teachers in high school don’t repeat, you take notes and try to keep up with what they’re teaching. It’s funny how now we’re in high school and our teachers are saying the exact same thing about University while they never applied it. I’m betting that it’s going to be the same thing once we’re in University…although is there any further stage of education?
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Holding On

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Every tunnel has an exit, you just need to find it first...

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I’m doing my figuration right now…and it seems that I’m not a very optimistic person. Every time I needed to go somewhere that isn’t listed as “usual” I have this thought in the back of my head that goes “TURN BACK!” How can I even be against doing some more figuration…last time I had a blast. I guess it’s just pre-programmed in my head. I’m sure some of you might feel somewhat of the same, like you’re so comfortable at home that you don’t want to leave…right?

Anyways, so I’m here now (I’m writing this post from my BlackBerry) and the wait is so long. Last time we didn’t even have time to sit down, it was constantly get up and go, which made it very exciting. Now I’m basically sitting in a room…alone with another random guy. I guess this is better than school…at least I get paid for it (I’m not greedy, I just like to know that I’m working for my money…shouldn’t we all?). Last time I was here we were filming with 3 female comedians. They were so snobby; they rejected us during the whole day. THEY DIDN’T EVEN SAY HELLO!!!! This time around we’re with two male comedians and they’ve been really nice. They came up to us, presented themselves, asked us who we were, started asking a bit of questions, etc. I thought it was supposed to be the other way around, that we guys are rude and impolite while the girls are compassionate and sympathetic.
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Humanity

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What happens if tomorrow is the end of the world?

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I can’t wait for Friday night, not because it’s the end of school (maybe a lot) but more because I’m posting up the two best pics that I personally chose. My friend agrees with me that the two pictures are the best, they’re all good but some are more professional looking than others. Since I have 6 pictures I chose to upload the two “week” ones yesterday night since one was a bit blurry and the other one featured somewhat of an awkward position. The ones that I’m going to upload tonight are okay…I guess. But for tomorrow I’m really not sure which one I prefer, the two are completely different and bring somewhat of a different edge to photography. I personally think (51% over 49%) that the picture called “Terre à Terre” is the best one since it’s full of vibrant colors while the other one called “Lucky Enough” has a gorgeous yet simple background and features a sharp position.
This post is proof that I have nothing to do right now, our supervisor just came in to let us know that they won’t need us for another while (joy). I guess I wrote enough for today, at least I did something. When I get home I need to work on two essential projects that are due tomorrow. I’m getting back to doing nothing now, have fun at school…or doing whatever you’re doing right now…

Somewhere I don’t know

I’m a boy and you’re a girl
You can’t simply walk by me and ignore me
You must stop to talk to me
Make me yours and I’ll make you mine
Take me away to somewhere I don’t know
Help me, love me, insult me, and destroy me
Obviously you’ve grown tired of seeing the same sad expressions, hearing the same old voice, feeling the same frigid touch
Take me away to somewhere I don’t know
Erase me from your past
Run away and leave me to my faith
Bu whatever you do don’t forget me
After all I’m the best you ever had
One day I’ll be back for more, I promise
I’ll take you away to somewhere we don’t know
I’ll take you away to somewhere we both belong

Copyright © Cédric JM Gigoux, 2009

The Daily Beat : Come On Get Higher – Matt Nathanson

Snapshot Wednesday

Move a bit to the right…now to the left…

I’m finally done with my photoshoot! That was really intense! So many pictures but in the end the final products come in minimal packages. We took at least 30 pictures (it’s quite a small number) and now I have in my possession 6 final pictures that can be used in a portfolio…ONLY 6! But we had fun and that’s the essential thing, right? I cant guarantee anything, the pictures aren’t epic (I don’t presently have the best camera in the world) but I’m planning on saving up a bit of cash (A LOT) to buy myself a professional camera, or something in between. Oh and by the way, the modeling is still a bit mediocre since I’m not really used to it…I was a bit shy…but I got used to it after a while. It’s more noticeable in the picture “Wishing Well”, I’m sorry of the inconvenient.
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Freezing Mist

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Feel the atmosphere around you getting colder and colder...

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We had another supplement teacher in math today; I was so happy that we weren’t actually going to work. But I guess I was wrong since the teacher that was supervising us during the first 10 minutes of class was really strict…and harsh. I pulled out my BlackBerry to shut it off (class hadn’t even started) and she looks at me seriously and goes “Make your phone disappear…now!” So much for being polite…I never did anything to the poor woman. As soon as the national anthem starts she asks everybody to get up (very rudely again), as if we didn’t know the routine. Sooner or later she asks us to take our work out…bummer…while awaiting our real supplement teacher to come in class.
It came as a total surprise when I saw my history teacher walk through the door (in my head I was like “DAMN IT!”); as if it was him out of every teacher available in the school. When he came in he starred at me (I don’t think he knows that I’m in the gifted program…he thinks I’m retarded or something). There went my “spare” period…not only do I have a class per day with that crazy teacher now I’m stuck with two…ah well.
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Wishing Well

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I think I prefer wishing on a shooting star...to bad I can't sit on one

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I just can’t wait for tomorrow, I’m going to do some more figuration for that TV show I talked about earlier last week. I’m getting paid for it again…so more money towards that new camera I want! Anyways I should really go now…I need to get up early tomorrow. Hope you guys like the pictures, see ya!

The Daily Beat – Dead End Countdown : The New Cities

Gloomy Atmosphere and Changeling Minds

Let's play a mind game

Last night before going to bed I took the initiative to sit down and scribble words on a blank sheet of paper, and it turned out successful. My final text is called “Sometimes”, I hope you enjoy it.

Sometimes

Sometimes I wish I could rewind
Go back into the past
Make everything seemingly perfect
Fix every broken heart
Put a smile on every sad face
Bring significance to my existence
I want to live longer
I want more time
I want to be yesterday
But I can’t

Sometimes I wish I could pause
Stop time
Discover what is mine
To whom I belong
How I got to this point
Who I truly am
I want to be at a hundred places at once
I want to stop loosing time
I want to be today
But I can’t

Sometimes I wish I could fast-forward
Skip ahead into the future
Forget the awkward situations
The solitary nights
The gloomy days
To see what’s coming up ahead
I want to witness the magic moments
I want my life to be
I want to waste time
I want to be tomorrow
But I can’t

Sometimes I wish I could stop
Put my life on hold
Put an end to this chaos
Mute this uproar
Hide away from this calamity
Shield my eyes from the truth
I want to be free
I want to be liberated
I want nothing more than nothing
I want to be gone
But I can’t

Sometimes I wish I could hold on tighter
Believe in tomorrow
In a new day
There’s so much to do yet so little time
But when you think about it you have a whole lifetime
I want time
I need time
I have time
I’m simply losing some while trying to get some
Living one day as if it was the last
Second by second
I want imperfections
I want something different
I want something more
I want to live
And I can…
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Copyright © Cédric JM Gigoux, 2009
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Materialistic Urgency

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All we want is money, money, money, all we need is love, love, love...

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You know when you have these supplement teachers in class, and the teacher that you normally have left a ton of work to make the supplement’s life easier but it never turns out as planned since the class is noisy, disruptive and they don’t give a damn? Well that was today’s math class. I don’t know why but teenagers simply have a tendency of acting very strangely when their daily routine is somewhat messed up. We gave him a hard time, seriously, people were running around in class and we didn’t even work. He didn’t seem to mind, I mean, he was reading his newspaper the whole time.

I read the news really recently and I saw that they found pieces of the plane that disappeared. That story is so sad; I can’t believe stuff like this still happens.
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Rise Upon

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The sky is shinning, my faith is dying, I might be lying...

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I just got back from baseball, it was one crazy game. I tell you, my life is so unpredictable, as I was running to the first base I tripped…luckily it rained today so I slipped for a few meters. When I got up I was soaking wet, felt as if I had just took a shower. And since it had rained people thought the game was cancelled so we literally a group of 10 people. I didn’t mind, I got to clarify things concerning the photo shoot with my friend (she got the area under her lip pierced, it’s so cool, now I feel like getting snake bites) and turns out we’re taking the pictures tomorrow. Oh, and my dad informed me that the Stanley Cup finally is tonight, I was surprised (I so don’t watch hockey) that they even show these games on TV in 2009. Anyways, I have so much stuff to do, better get to work. See ya.

The Daily Beat : Is This Never Again - The Midway State

Keeping A Promise

So much for writing a blog a day!

I guess I just can’t keep promises; well…I can…but not these kinds of promises. My life lately is full of random events that I am unaware of; sometimes they are pleasant, sometimes they interfere with my academic success, sometimes they get on my nerves, you get the point. Summer is coming along anyways, and when I say summer I really mean summer in two ways: one being that the summer vacations are almost here (I must say that summer isn’t actually summer when there’s school) and the summer season is starting to be felt lately since the temperature is getting warmer and warmer. Okay, I’m stopping here with summer since I said it to much…
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Awakening

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What surrounds you is alive...are you?

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I’m such a procrastinator it’s impossible, I do everything at the very last minutes and it’s seriously starting to affect my life (okay maybe not that bad). I don’t know if you recall me talking about this propaganda campaign project that we need to present in class, which is an interdisciplinary project putting in context mathematics as well as English, that project. Turns out it’s due for Monday and we hadn’t even started yet, and I’m saying this as if we were Saturday. So of course we needed to work on the project during the week end…but because of my unpredictable life there were some tiny (HUGE) constraints. I was supposed to do a short video on Friday with my brother, let’s just say that he wasn’t really up to it. In my mind it wasn’t a big deal since we always had Saturday…NOT! My mom tells me that we’re heading to my cousins’ (okay that I knew…I just temporarily forgot). How am I going to film now? There wasn’t any other option…I needed to film at my cousins’. When you think about it it’s a bit rude…but knowing my cousins they just don’t mind (they’re the ones with whom I did the Pokerface Spoof Video Clip). I was right, my cousins’ gladly contributed to the making of the video and it’s actually good. I just didn’t want the whole filming process to consume all of our quality time as family and in the end it wasn’t the case. We had time to do other stuff…like crazy stuff. We took a walk to the video store and we acted like kids…or mentally retarded people (I’m not always up for that kind of behaviour but it doesn’t hurt once in a while). My brother, my younger cousin and a friend were constantly stopping on the side to hug random trees while my cousin and I were pretending we were those “intersection volunteer people”, you know the ones with the stop signs and the whistle. When we got close to the video store my brother found a lonely shopping cart. He putted it to good use; my cousin’s friend volunteered to be the crash test dummy in the cart. When she was well positioned my brother started running around, jumping of sidewalks and causing an uproar in the street; an uproar that included our laughter.
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Frozen In Time

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Sometimes we wish we could pause, rewind, fast forward...stop...hold on...play

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When we finally got back at their house we crashed in the backyard. We started random discussions and the subject of Harry Potter vs. Twilight popped up. It was quite interesting, my cousin has quite a strong opinion (she tripped out on me when she read my blog…the part where I said that the Twilight movie was actually not bad…). In the end Harry Potter obviously won…he always does.

When we left my cousin’s that night I was really late…can’t really remember. The only thing I recall is that I was editing the video at 1 in the morning and then I was in bed.

What do you know, it’s Saturday and I haven’t started the written part of my project. But my day was already planned that morning, and I made sure to get rid of all of the unpredictable events. It was clear, I get to Em’s at 10…and I leave then when I’m done…if I ever get the damn thing done. Time went by quickly…next thing you know it’s 3 o’clock and Em needs to head to the dance studio to get her pictures taken. I tagged along, I couldn’t go in the room with her (obviously) so I sat instead in a waiting room, which was super tiny, and I waited. It’s crazy how some people have loud conversations when you’re around them, and as soon as you glance they freak out (at least I think) as if you’re eavesdropping on their conversation. They were two girls a few steps away from me and one of them was reading some dirty text that she got from a guy out loud, laughing her head off in the process. After that she looks at her friend (at least I think she was) and starts telling her how one day she’ll end up being a lesbian whatsoever. I kind of tried to ignore them, but they were really loud, so I listened…I mean if I didn’t I wouldn’t be writing this right? Anyways, I finished the project at 8 that night…and I had some finishing touches to bring to the video once I got home. I didn’t go to bed so late…it was only (I wish I could say only) 11.
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Sentimental Souvenirs

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What is done is done, brace yourself for what's up ahead

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I seriously need to stop writing these huge posts; they’re a complete waste of time. I don’t really feel like writing something about school…I told myself that I would stop…it’s long, repetitive, demoralizing…I need to stop. The only actual fun part was that…WE DIDN’T GET TO PRESENT TODAY! I’m so happy, there was 10 minutes left to the period (last period of the day) and we were up next. When the team before us finished the teacher figured that we didn’t have enough time to present. More time means more stuff to add to the presentation. Right now I’m working on the project and my task consists on finding some pictures of celebrities that can give a testimonial of our mathematician. Some pictures are really suggestive…like Paris Hilton, Britney Spears, and Angelina Jolie. Surprisingly Lady Gaga had some decent pictures. I really like Lady Gaga, I mean she might be this weird chick but I find her stage persona so intriguing and original, and her music is really good…beat wise. I’ll talk about that in another post.

I’m going back to work now, I should be finished soon. I’ve been looking at other people’s blogs lately and I have noticed that at the end of some peoples’ posts they suggest songs that you should listen to. I think I should start doing that to. Got to go now…don’t want to procrastinate no more.

The Daily Beat: Starstruck – Lady Gaga ft. Flo Rida

Determination

At last!

First blog where I don’t enumerate everything I did…as in every little detail! I’ve been reading blogs lately and well…mine was a bit repetitive and redundant, but the pictures made a difference.

The past two days we’re awesome, I barely had school since I was doing so figuration (is that even a word?! I’m too lazy to go check in the dictionary) at a place near my school. I really wasn’t sure if I was going to like the experience at first; I started at 7:30 and finished at 6:30, which represents a total of 11 hours. Sure I was getting paid, but for once my heart was telling me that the money wasn’t essential. Well damn you heart since I decided to go anyways, I just couldn’t back out of this experience. Not so sure of what my day would look like I made my way to a tiny room called “the holding” where we needed to sign legal papers, forms, etc. to prevent some miscalculation whatsoever. When I stepped in I noticed that we were only three in the room; two girls and I. This couldn’t be right, I mean, only three individuals, more people were to come in sooner the later…right? When 7:30 struck there was sign of a forth individual whatsoever.
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Rebirth

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Every hit you take brings new balance to your life

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It’s not the fact that we were a relatively small group that bothered me; it was that the supervisor had stated in one of her email that there was going to be a lot of time to kill where we needed to stay in the “holding room” and occupy ourselves by reading, doing some homework, studying, or anything else. I hadn’t brought much; apart from my BlackBerry I only had my History paper that I “started”, whatever that means. Soon enough we were put in position and we were given directions to follow on set. After that significant moment the day went fast, too fast. It was such a good experience, and I personally think I did awesome, so awesome that they asked me to come back next Thursday to do some more! The only downer during the day was the horrible food…it tasted like moisture (I haven’t personally tasted moisture and I don’t plan on doing so anytime soon). And there was actually one funny part during the whole filming process where some random kids came onto the set while the cameras were rolling. They kept on asking us questions like: “Have you guys seen Patrick?!”, “What’s happening down here?!” It was hilarious, I’m sure that’s going onto the DVD as a blooper. I couldn’t believe how stupid they were, looking straight into the lens of the cameras and asking what’s happening, wake up! Turns out that figuration is actually very paying, not as paying as a full time job but still very paying.

I’ve read the news quite recently and my attention came upon the story that is on everybody’s lips at this very instant; the plane that mysteriously disappeared over the Atlantic Ocean. I find the whole phenomenon very disturbing, it’s a real life movie scenario; a scene taken right out of a suspenseful action movie. It’s such a surreal story, the fact that nobody received an emergency call, not even one tiny little whisper…the plane just disappeared…vanished…ceased to exist. I’m sending out positive vibes to the friends and families living in grief right now.
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The Ottawa Sun

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If you don't live there you just don't get it...

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My skin is red and itchy now! I’m not having an allergic reaction, it’s because today (being Friday) we had an EXTRA LONG LUNCH that started at 11:00 and finished at 3:25. During that lapse of time we were outside listening to a live concert, signing yearbooks, and witnessing the Bye-Bye which is the end of the year show. This year is the first year where the whole activities were held exclusively outside, and I must say it was quite enjoyable, although now I’m kind of anxious regarding whether or not I have skin cancer (completely absurd on my behalf). The music was loud; we were sitting literally in front of the speakers (proof that sometimes we teenagers are so stubborn), a dangerous mix that led to partial hearing loss for an hour or so. But I must say that it was quite an amazing show, a good contrast with this amazing year.

I finally wrote a post that made sense, although I’m planning to write every single day from now on since writing a post after many days of absence leads to confusion and a lack of inspiration. But how am I going to write a post every single day? Let’s say I get home at midnight…and I’m too tired to sit down at my desk and write a complete post. What do I do? Easy, we’re in 2009 and it’s not for nothing. It’s called mobile internet. I’m planning on getting internet on my BlackBerry since I think it’s a crucial tool. My phone is basically a laptop; I have almost every single program I need to make projects and its quick. With a click of a button I can send stuff at lightning fast speed, quite ingenious.

It’s getting a bit late, I’ve been working on some pictures for a few hours and some turned out pretty well, you’ll see in my next blog. Watch out for the one called “Frozen In Time”, I find it particularly appealing. And for this post’s pictures well they’re old pictures that I dug up in my portfolio, the “Ottawa Sun” one is a reference to one of Ottawa’s newspaper, its okay if you don’t get it. It’s also outdated, but nice anyway. Really need to head to bed now; I have a big day ahead of me tomorrow. Only two more weeks of school and then it’s OVER! Have fun in the mean time.

Clouds And Sunshine

THE SUN!

Finally I see sunlight! It seems like forever since the sun last pierced the cloudy veil that has been covering our much beloved city sky. Time is going by so fast; I can’t believe this year is already coming to an end. I still remember the first day of school in 9th grade, it’s so crazy. Before I go further with this post I’m officially announcing that this is the last post in which I’m explaining each and every day like in a personal diary since it’s getting very long and repetitive.
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Society's Meadow

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A glimpse of light in the concrete jungle

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Monday was freezing cold! We had an extended lunch since the student counsel organised activities on the school’s patio, one of them being a station where 12th graders as well as our principal got their legs waxed to raise money for the prom. It was disgusting, but I really wanted to see people scream! It was so darn cold out in the open that we decided to head…to the river? Sometimes I really wonder what goes through our minds, I mean we’re complaining that we’re freezing cold but then we decide to hang out near water where the temperature drops down considerably due to these winds (I really don’t know what I’m talking about…we learned that in science class and I already forgot, proof of school’s awkward purpose). I’m seriously starting to wonder if global warming is a global crisis after all…or if it even exists! We’re heading to the middle of June and it’s about 10 degrees Celsius outside, that’s abnormal. Soon enough there’s going to have a new ice age and we’re all going to die…just kidding. When I got home that night I basically came in and crashed in my room; I rarely watch TV but that night was an “exception”, I really didn’t have much inspiration all together. And guess what was playing, none other than the MTV Movie Awards, so retarded. Especially when Robert Pattinson (I messed up his last name…people are going to kill me for that) and the girl playing Bella were about to kiss…and after what seemed to be an hour of suspense/disgust she turned away and said “thank you”?! I got sick of it until the phone rang, it was my friend. She saved me from a show I miserably couldn’t stop watching. She reminded me that we had a baseball game on Tuesday, being the next day. Obviously I couldn’t hang up on her; we talked for about half an hour (which is quite minimal compared to previous experiences) and she ended up telling me that she needed me as a model for a portfolio she needed to hand in at school as part of a final exam. I was so excited (I still am) since I don’t get to take photographs of myself quite often (my brother doesn’t see the point and it’s just “impossible” to do so). Even though I’m happy there were factors which caused some thinking, I desperately needed a haircut and well…they are some imperfections that we all wish we could correct…but in reality it’s not that easy. Hopefully for me there’s somewhat of a light at the end of the tunnel. When I was young I feel on my nose pretty hard…and it kind of made the structure collapse. Then when I started growing rapidly the shape of my nose deformed since there wasn’t a definite structure. Now I have this lump which is extremely annoying and brings some health problems, one being I can’t properly breathe and the other one is that I can’t smell…which in some circumstances might come in handy. Back to the solution part, my name is presently on a waiting list which is HUGE since there’s a lack of specialists in the region. One day I’ll be on that operating table, ready for a much deserved plastic surgery which will obviously give me a better looking profile (don’t get me wrong here, I’m not saying that I find myself repulsive, far from that, it’s just a minimalist touch).
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Naked Pebbles

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Remeber who you are, whatever the situation might be

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Tuesday we really got down to business in class. The teachers gave us all of our projects and it’s horrible, I don’t think I’ll be able to finish everything in time, especially in History where we have this 32 section thing of 100 words or so to hand in for next week…I’m stressing out. In English we have to develop a promotional campaign to glorify a mathematician and we’re so not going somewhere with it…Finally in French we need to compose this fairy tale story kind of text, so not my type. I’m a bubbly person; I mean I should be able to write this stuff…but NO! My texts are kind of depressive (said by my mom) and they all put in evidence a disturbing aspect of today’s society, which I find very alarming. Following my friend’s phone call I was going to get my hair done for the shoot, either way my hair was really long and messy. I really wasn’t sure of what I wanted…I tried explaining it to my hairdresser, how I usually straighten my hair (epic failure every time, if only I had a stylist with me 24/7) and that lately it was out of control and very “heavy”, meaning that I wanted something that seemed more light weight and wasn’t to short at the same time. In the end it was good, I took a picture (me taking a picture of myself…horrible) and I’m posting it right under here. It was also my first baseball game of the season. I was really naïve since I haven’t done physical activity in a while (my mom keeps on telling me I should go to the gym and workout…I just don’t feel like it). When the game started I was a bit rusty…but hell, I did a homerun and I scored the very FIRST point of the season. I was really proud of myself. At the game my friend was there so we talked a bit about the photo shoot. She kept on calling it “our thing” and it was very uncomfortable when adults kept starring at us as if we were some perverted children. I opted calling it “our project” which made no difference since it’s as random and weird.
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Obscene Problems

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Just make a fuss about it!

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Wednesday, I write to much…my French teacher made a “breakdown” in front of class where she stopped talking for 10 minutes (relieve) and held her head, nodding, as if something was miserably wrong. She keeps on incorporating her personal life into class and it’s getting very frustrating! School is like hell right now, I remember in primary school; at this time of year we weren’t doing much, while now it’s intense learning and studying for the final exams. I hate high school…although I’m really going to miss it once I’m gone to University. Finally I got to escape…to the mall! I was going to buy some clothing at American Apparel (that store seriously freaks me out…I need to get used to it) but in the end I didn’t buy anything other than a case for my BlackBerry. I already have one, it’s this holster that goes on the side of your hip but I find it to “business” looking (leather and all) so I opted for the basic silicone case that protects the edges. It was really inexpensive, considering that some people sell them almost 30$ the piece.

I'm heading to bed soon enough, I have to get up early tomorrow since I'm playing of a "person in the backgroud" in this television show. It's actually paying, can't wait.