What to say? I’m feeling so messed up right now, I just can’t think straight and everything around me seems so unfavourable on my behalf. I don’t even know if words can describe the feeling since it’s so much more. Here goes nothing.
I know I’m not the only one who felt, feels, and will feel this way. It’s as if everything I do bounces back at me negatively. It’s really starting to get to my head. I feel as if the truest compliments are but the shells of insults, that remarks aren’t constructive but more destructive, hence I can’t seem to find the light in this very dark tunnel. I’m trying to find a certain example to express myself and I think this one is somewhat appropriate. Lately I’ve been working on the advancement of my photography portfolio, and people have seen glimpses of my work. I had compliments; positive indeed, but in my head I want more…I feel as if I deserve more. I guess it’s just this crazy idea that I’m making myself and that soon enough this feeling will make it’s parting, but in the mean time it’s seriously killing me. Other than that I feel as if every word I say comes back and stabs me in the back. I could go on and on with this…but I don’t want to sound depressed and all. I’m leaving Canada soon…and I guess it’s really going to be beneficial. Enough said.
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Happy Ending
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This is my story, it is never-ending
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Like I mentioned I’ve been working on my photography portfolio, I always am but this time more intensively. It actually started yesterday when I decided to reorganize all of my pictures by creating casual and formal folders for every model as well as different categories for my landscape pictures. Now that I’m organized I’m posting the pictures up on facebook. I know, not the best way to “get out there” but I guess it’s a beginning; people are actually noticing the uniqueness in my pictures.
For once I took something positive out of the whole situation. People are amazed how “professional looking” my pictures are and I must say, they’re not half that bad. Even better, you must consider the fact that the pictures are taken on a very simple digital camera that isn’t meant for professional photography, while other pictures (quite a few) are captured on my BlackBerry, and the software which I use to edit the pictures is quite basic since it’s actually a video editing software, it’s quite an achievement. Imagine what I’d be capable of with a professional camera and a better software…I guess I’ll just need to start saving up money, which I already am.
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Like I mentioned I’ve been working on my photography portfolio, I always am but this time more intensively. It actually started yesterday when I decided to reorganize all of my pictures by creating casual and formal folders for every model as well as different categories for my landscape pictures. Now that I’m organized I’m posting the pictures up on facebook. I know, not the best way to “get out there” but I guess it’s a beginning; people are actually noticing the uniqueness in my pictures.
For once I took something positive out of the whole situation. People are amazed how “professional looking” my pictures are and I must say, they’re not half that bad. Even better, you must consider the fact that the pictures are taken on a very simple digital camera that isn’t meant for professional photography, while other pictures (quite a few) are captured on my BlackBerry, and the software which I use to edit the pictures is quite basic since it’s actually a video editing software, it’s quite an achievement. Imagine what I’d be capable of with a professional camera and a better software…I guess I’ll just need to start saving up money, which I already am.
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It Was Long Go
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Remember the face and the world around
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This is actually the first post where I don’t state what day of the week we are, isn’t that amazing?! Too bad I’m messing it up by saying that today is indeed Tuesday, the day which screams baseball as well as vaccines. Yep, tonight I’m going for shots at the clinic in preparation for my trip to Seattle.
Either way I should get back to studying, I’ve trying to for the past days but I always ended up doing other stuff. I at least need to comprehend the basics or else I’m screwed for the driver’s license test…which I’m sure I’m not…is that even a sentence? Anyways, got to get back to studying since I stopped to write this post, see ya.
The Daily Beat : Watermark - Enya
This is actually the first post where I don’t state what day of the week we are, isn’t that amazing?! Too bad I’m messing it up by saying that today is indeed Tuesday, the day which screams baseball as well as vaccines. Yep, tonight I’m going for shots at the clinic in preparation for my trip to Seattle.
Either way I should get back to studying, I’ve trying to for the past days but I always ended up doing other stuff. I at least need to comprehend the basics or else I’m screwed for the driver’s license test…which I’m sure I’m not…is that even a sentence? Anyways, got to get back to studying since I stopped to write this post, see ya.
The Daily Beat : Watermark - Enya
