The End Is Now

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There are no more excuses, because the end is now. I haven’t been writing for a long time, and only one fundamental reason exists to explain this dilemma: I decided to officially stop this blog. Now there is no definite reason, because the reason lies within a reason…

How ironic can this be; the fact that this closing post is my 100th post! I couldn’t ask for more, it seems so right in a kind of way.

My mission here is accomplished; I brought significance to the once troubling question that is now so simple in my mind. Here we are surviving, now here I am living. Through the few months that preceded the creation of my blog I really found who I am, finding equality in friendship and love, school and home, life in general and what seemed to be an aching task…

Now there’s only one thing left to say, goodbye and farwell. This is the last post I’ll possibly ever write; if ever the urge comes again to revive this piece of my life I’ll let you all know, but right now I’m burying this part of me and discovering a new one, or maybe an old one I had once lost.

P.S.: I love you to everyone who stood by me, who encouraged me, and most importantly who loved me infinitely during this short but enriching journey.

P.S.: I…to the people who wasted their time judging me…

I put my shades on
I wave goodbye
I wish the world goodnight
As I walk away into the midst of my life
Never turning my back…

Feeling Montreal

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All week I’ve been in this whole “Montreal” mood. I’m not so sure why, but my guess is that if I had to chose between Montreal and Toronto I would most definitely choose Montreal because it’s such a different city. Toronto is the replica of New York in Canada, but Montreal has a different history, culture, and overall life to it. Maybe it’s just my opinion but I’m just saying.

To elaborate on this ambiguous subject I would say that Montreal is the French city that is slowly starting to get assimilated with the rise of the English community. Sad...maybe not quite; it’s a fact of life, although Montreal will always say Montreal in my heart.

This is without a doubt the shortest post I have ever wrote, but it’s because right now I’m very late on the whole blog posts and I need to get up to date…and it’s so hard.

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A Bit Morbid

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I finally got to use my camera at its full potential! Yes, I had my first ever photoshoot with my new Canon EOS Rebel T1i! Where to start now? Hum….how about this: I’ve been constantly telling myself that I’m not a photographer; instead I’m more of what you call a creative photographer. What’s that? Well it’s basically someone who takes pictures but in a creative way. For example, my images might reflect certain emotions that aren’t always channelled correctly with the audience. Anyways, once you see the new pictures I took with my new camera you’ll know what I’m talking about, other than that you’re probably just lost!

Talking about my very first photoshoot, well I chose Em as my model, because of course she’s very special and I promised as well. I really wanted for the weather to be cloudy and kind of morbid in a sense, to incorporate this depressing mood into the pictures. Of course nobody wants to take depressing pictures, but that’s just what I wanted, and nobody was going to tell me to do otherwise. Miraculously my wish was granted…but when there’s rain there are bugs, because the air is humid. No joke, I have bug bites on my face! I hate nature when it comes to photography, it might be beautiful but once it has enough it simply sends out a swarm of mosquitoes to chase after you. Oh, and before I forget, the picture up above is my favourite frame from the whole photoshoot. Why? Maybe because it’s very different in a way, and it’s really expressive; not your usual smile and pretty eyes.

You might have noticed that I changed the format of my posts. It’s due to boredom…of always adding two insignificant pictures with text under them. Now my goal is to put up pictures that are actually linked to the subject of the post…so you guys can have a visual aspect of what I’m talking about. Genius right!? Okay, maybe not quite, but sure is different!

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Emergency In My Life

Where did my CPR learning ever go to?

Before I start talking about the main subject of this post I just want to state that I’m done with my very first week of 11th grade. What a relief? Right, still have some 30 something weeks or more to go; hopefully it will go by very fast.

I have a problem; I’m not able to say no. Every time somebody asks me to do something for them I say yes, without hesitation. It’s becoming kind of a problem because I’m putting other people in front of myself. This said, my friend Steph called me up on Friday night to ask me if I could take another friend’s shift at the aviation museum on Saturday morning from 11 to 3. Of course I answered yes, because I’d rather be doing that than being on a couch all day.
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Secretive Bloom

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In a damned paradise

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Now I got up at 9 this morning, got ready as usual, ate 2 Nutella toasts (that stuff is good, never tasted it before but now I’m hooked on it; it’s chocolate in a jar…but that’s good for you!) when suddenly one of my friend text’s me and ask me if I can please go online and check her mobile phone bill for her because some construction guys cut their cord at home. I said yes, I did…and I needed to leave home at 10 when it was 9:45. I took to many things, because I didn’t really have time to get her thing done so I just left it there. So I get to the aviation museum on time, and we’re 2 people working in the cafeteria, being Steph and I. Let me enumerate everything that possibly went wrong during the day…

1. I get there and this man comes up to the counter and starts yapping on how the place shouldn’t been run by “kids” and that we don’t know what we’re doing, blah blah blah. I really wanted to tell him to shut up at some point but some nice man told him instead.
2. A man comes up to the counter and asks for two cups of boiling water. Right next to him stand his two kids, one being about 6 years old and the other one being about 3. When Steph put the cups on the counter the 3 year old boy tries to reach for it and accidentally spills all of the content on him. PANIC!!!! The man picks up his son and starts screaming out that he needs ice cold water. Next thing you know the kid is in the kitchen sink and some employees are trying to help out. I could see from my angle that the kid was pretty badly burnt. In the end they brought the poor boy to the hospital, and by that time he was still crying and screaming.
3. The coffee machine busted twice, meaning that the coffee was spilling everywhere on the counter and onto the floor, like a massive flood. After today my shoes smell like coffee.
4. Busiest day of the year, Steph had never seen that much people at the cafeteria in her employee life. Let’s just say that I chose the right day to say yes…
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It's In My Head

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These voices, they're drawing me closer to the edge!

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But to end a day in a positive way what do you do? You go buy you’re camera that you wanted FOREVER!!! Yes! I finally bought the camera I wanted, although it’s not a Canon EOS 50d. Instead I opted for the model that comes diertly acfter it, being the Canon EOS 500d, also known as the Canon EOS Rebel T1i. It’s absolutely wonderful, and I took my very first picture called “It’s In My Head” posted above. I now have a camera and two lenses, and its works for me so much!! I’m really happy, as you can see.

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Back To School

Surprisingly isn’t that bad!

Cedric is back in school! It sure does feel weird to be one step away from being the oldest in high school, because I actually feel as if I got started yesterday. Time is seriously going by way to fast, and I was all excited to be 16?! Now I only wish time could stop and I could stay 16 forever, because everything is kind of perfect right now; not to old, not to young, you’re chasing liberty, you’re getting responsibilities, you don’t need to pay for a lot of stuff, you’re not a kind nor and adult, yet my life is incomplete. We all are!
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The Corner of My Heart

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Hidden away, inaccesible to love

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Super anxious when I first stepped into the school on Wednesday! I hadn’t felt that feeling in a year, and I don’t really like it. Remember how last year I got to school an hour before class started, well it’s still the same. Sometimes it’s long, but on the first day I didn’t mind since I needed to go see my counsellor for this schedule problem. Of course there’s a HUGE line waiting outside the door, because everybody has problems this year. Not only that, but to many people tried to get into our school this year so they had to limit the number of student, hence it’s a full house…meaning there’s A LOT of people in the hallways. Anyways, I finally got to talk one on one with my counsellor, and she figured out my problem, it’s just that now I don’t have my economy class anymore, instead they had to give me a psychology class. That’s just great; I don’t see myself listening to other people’s problems, absolutely not. I guess I just need to give the class a shot. So now my classes for this semester are Writing, Psychology, French, and Law. All my classes are fine, and surprisingly I like my Psychology class…because all of my very close friends are in it. Isn’t that like the perfect period everybody dreams for? At least now I have two classes that I really like, talking about Psychology and Law. Yes, Law, and it’s so entertaining. Best of all is that we had a random quiz to put into practice what we know about Canadian Law, and surprisingly I scored one of the highest in the class. This is looking promising!
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Caught In the Moment

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It doesn't get more realistic than this

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I’m so excited to see my friends again; I all missed them SO much, without forgetting that I’m really late on all of their lives. I finally get to see Em on a day to day basis, that’s a plus! And now we’re back to the river, our usual spot where we hang out, good memories, and bad ones, but in the end it’s just tradition.

Today I finally decided to start this project of mine, although it’s personal…meaning it’s not academic, and I call it my Photography Notebook Project. It’s basically this journal that my cousins gave me on my 15th birthday, that I never used until this day, in which I insert my photography idea and once the pictures are taken I simply add them to the journal, tadam!

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Space And A Dash

Because I want it done

Oups, my bad, I’m so sorry! Why have I been absent for 4 days?! I was tired, I had other engagements, and maybe I didn’t feel like it? Well whatever the reason is I’m back and not ready to write a lot. I just feel like going to bed right now…so sad. Let’s make it quick, in this kind of bullet point format…if you don’t mind. It’s because I have school tomorrow and I want to be energized for the big first day!
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Hidden Crystal

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Like a diamond in the rough...

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Saturday, August 22nd 2009:

- We won our second baseball game, only one left and then we have a perfect score.
- Em and I we’re talking when she started poking at my ear and finished by piercing my ear again, as in I once had a piercing but I took it out. I don’t see myself with and earring, so I won’t be putting one. Instead I’ll wait until the hole closes again and then I’ll pop it open over and over. It’s called boredom (joke).
- I met up with my friends that night. We had a blast; I seriously don’t see them enough.

Sunday, August 23rd 2009:

- Finally purchased the hot tub my parents we’re talking about. It’s so big and spacious; I’m so excited to finally get it installed in the backyard and enjoy some quality time with family and friends.
- We lost our third baseball game. I guess nobody is perfect after all.
- I assisted the final baseball game where my friend’s team won. Congratulation for him; better luck next year for us.
- Went to some friends until late at night to catch up on each others lives since we don’t see very often.
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Ocean of Yellow I

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Yellow under, yellow over, yellow...I'm a dreamer...

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Monday, August 24th 2009:

- Took the initiative to take random pictures of nature, because I don’t have models or ideas right now.
- We decided where the hot tub is going to go; getting even more excited.
- Added new pictures on deviantART: www.cedricgigoux.deviantart.com

Tuesday, August 25th 2009:

- Went to Em’s for the day.
- Updated my musical library because I needed it.
- Got another vaccine for preparation for China.

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Not My Crowd

It’s just human nature

I just came back from my baseball game that’s part of this weekend long tournament, and let me just say that it really was something. The baseball part was fine, I had fun and I even got the chance to score a point…which is really hard because of the whole concept behind being fair and everything, hence men are obliged to swing on their wrong side and after an advance of 5 points the winning team’s male members must swing with only one hand. Hard, I know, but it sure doesn’t take the fun out of the game. The “something” was this gang of people that used to go to my school, well…some, who were completely drunk while others were stoned; not very pleasant when you try to meet up with them in such a state. I guess it’s just not my crowd after all, and maybe it will never be. Heck, maybe destiny wants me to stay away from the “cool” kids…the social and stereotypical norm of “us” teenagers. There’s nothing I can do about it and as long as they stay out of my way everything I don’t have anything against them.
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Tell Me the Truth

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And only the truth

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Guess what! My parents decided today that they were definitely buying a hot tub! It’s so exciting! Okay maybe I’m overreacting but we wanted one in forever and now we can finally add this new addition to our backyard, meaning that we can take a swim in the pool during summer and take a dip in the hot tub during winter. Although I’m not a huge fan of water sports and swimming, etc, I’m sure we’re going to make good usage of it. On my way to the hot tub store I dropped off some flowers at Em’s house as a welcome back gift. I thought it would be kind on my behalf to do so, and in the end she really appreciated it.

It sure makes you feel well when you see your mom, sitting on a swing in a park with one of your best friend right and front of her, and they’re talking. It shows at what point you’re parents are dedicated to your social life and how they appreciate your choice of influential people around you. I love my parents for everything they do and above all for their charisma with all of my friends. I don’t know anybody who hates my parents, because they simply get along very well! I’m glad that my parents are always there for me to catch me when I fall…
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Whirlpool of Love

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Take me away, wash my pain away

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So it’s getting pretty late, and this never gets old. My brother has two friends over and for once they aren’t annoying or anything. He’s slowly making better friends, and it’s an improvement. Better head off to bed now because I have another baseball game tomorrow, wish me luck!

P.S.: Forgot to mention that we actually won the baseball game…oups…

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